Mason’s first two days of Kindergarten went great expect for the morning good-bye’s!! He would cry and say, “I can’t take it, I miss you”!! Yesterday the good-bye was so dramatic that the teacher had to pull him away from me!! I was kinda shocked at the drama of it all since he went to Pre-K and Spanish camp with no real major issues, a few tears sure, but not the pulling away, reaching and heavy crying!!! Yikes!! But I began to pray and seek God’s counsel and God revealed to me that Mason was convinced that the beginning of Kindergarten was an ending to his childhood as he knew it!! He was a big boy now and would be responsible for big boy burdens!!

God’s revealing reminded me about statements Mason made two weeks prior to Kindergarten. A lot of our conversations would include, worrying about living alone, raising a family, being a daddy, making money and having a job!!! Of course I would always give quick silly reassuring answers like, “Mason you don’t need to worry about it right now” or “Mason you’re being silly” or “Mason no matter how old you get you’ll always be my baby boy” and I would leave it at that!! However, Mason did NOT!!

Mason is a deep thinker and was taking the statement “you’re a big boy know, you’re in Kindergarten” really seriously!! The very thought of him becoming a functioning, living on my own adult, became a burden he could not bear!! That very evening I set Mason down and began to talk with him about his burden, with a sad look on his face he nodded in agreement that he had believed he was going to grow up and have to be on his own following Kindergarten. Well, this Momma’s heart broke into a million pieces!! He had created such a heavy burden for himself, which led to worry, overwhelmed feelings, anxiousness and fear!!

However, Mason’s story reminds me so much of myself at times!! I worry, fret, panic, become overwhelmed and have feelings of anxiousness, all because I’m trying to carry a burden that I wasn’t intended to carry alone!! I begin leaning on my own understanding and telling myself that I can handle it, fix it, or control it, but until I come to the realization that I can’t carry the burden all by myself I remain in the anxious state of worry and fret!! But when my Abba Father comes beside me and gives me gentle counsel through His word I’m reminded that He wants me to “Cast my burden upon Him…” Psalms 55:22

And just as Mason found relief in the reassurance from his Momma that his Daddy will continue to provide for him and that Mommy will continue to take care of him, we too need to lean on our Heavenly Father just like it says in the passage found in 1 Peter 5:7 “Casting all your care upon him, for he cares for you”!! Wow! What a comforting verse!! What reassurance!!! Our Heavenly Father doesn’t intend for us to carry our burdens alone. He wants to reassure us that He’s the One who will take care of all things and most importantly that “……He will never leave us nor forsake us” Deuteronomy 31:6

Mason’s experience has been a great reminder for me to exercise my childlike faith!! Just as Mason is trusting in his Mommy and Daddy to continue to provide for him, I too can trust God, my Heavenly “Daddy”!! Because in His word He asks me to “…not be anxious about anything” and to “not lean on my own understanding” but to “Trust in the Lord with all my heart”!! Philippians 4:6, Prov. 3:5!!!

Jesus is calling to us today to allow Him to lift our burdens, for He says in Matthew 11:30 “For my yoke is easy and my burden is light”. Not only is His burden light He longs to have us cradle in His arms with total dependence on Him!! As Mason said this morning, “Momma can you still hold me”?? I responded as I was picking him up into my arms,”Mason of course momma still can hold you”!! Sadly there will come a time when I will no longer be able to physically pick him up but I’m thankful that I can lead him to the One who he’ll never outgrow. The One who will walk beside him daily, carry his burdens and relieve all worry, anxiety and fear just as long as he continues to put into practice his Childlike Faith!!